OK, we’ve all got used to the concept of the song that makes you cry – mine is ‘Chasing Cars’ by Snow Patrol – and that’s fair enough. You’ve all got one.
Question is, have you got one of these: the song that makes you sad now because it used to make you happy? I got into Alanis Morissette just after I got into not-being-single.*So I was happy, and don’t deny it, we were, and yes, perhaps this song took how I felt further than I actually felt (Hello, appalling grammar!) (I never said I was in love, after all, but then, I never have, and it’s not as if Chasing Cars is really an accurate reflection of my feelings when really I’ve just had a slightly bad day and would like some nice sad music on the bus please-thankyou-bye) and perhaps it only described one facet of my feelings, but anyway, it always brought a smile to my face. Although musically I don’t approve of some aspects to it – like the way the chorus ends, or the fact taht the tune is the same thing over and over again – but I still like it for being all ‘woah. I’m happy and you’re actually a nice decent human being and, seriously, what?’ which is roughly how I felt at the time. Now, of course, I’m single again, and someone handed back my Bitterness Licence. (Alanis, be careful, he’s probably a douche, because – and I’m a single woman so it’s practically my biological and evolutionary imperative to say this – all men are bastards really). Except, and I’m going to betray the sisterhood here a little bit, sometimes they’re not. Sometimes it just doesn’t work.
Anyway I didnt’ mean to go into pseudo-emotional ramblings. This song used to make me happy, so now it’s a little bit poignant, but I did just spend a million years in the gym and I feel great and now I should go and do some work.
*I know, I know, I probably shouldn’t be into Alanis Morissette at all – she’s neither ‘cool’ nor ‘so kooky and unusual and interesting a thing to like that I’m cool by default’. But I am twenty years old and I like what I like, OK, so as my friend L would say – no judgies! Anyway. I